Post by Lily <3 on Apr 24, 2015 16:57:05 GMT -5
Futility
She had been selfish, brattish- stupid. And she knew it. She just couldn’t help it, the anger boiled down beneath her, forcing her to push away anybody and everybody. Titian was right they were family, not that stupid mare Mutiny or her disgusting father Hunter. She shuddered at his name. Why did she have to be created by those monsters? They wanted to use her for war. Part of her yearned for bloodshed, the thrill of the hunt and the adrenaline she would get as she took the life of another. But that wasn’t her that was the beast that her parents had created- that was what they wanted. It was just beneath her skin, she hated the monster she had become. She had to go back to the others and apologise and hope they would forgive her.
The filly trotted back to the stretch of land where she had last left Titian, Rusty and Leto. She was in luck as the trio remained there. Heavy-heartedly she made her way over to them. She bowed her head at them. “Titian” She said quietly, making her way over to the mountainous stallion. She rest her head against his neck, and let it linger there for a moment, she did this to him and then Rusty and finally Leto. “I’d like to apologise to you all about my behaviour, I’m sorry. It’s not who I truly am, well I don’t know who I am apart from the machine that my parents have made” she lowered her eyes.
“I don’t know how to react to situations, but I’ve learnt I will end up alone if I keep pushing you all away. You’re my true family.” She turned directly to Rusty and smirked. “You may be a little bit smaller than me, but you sure pack a kick, I am honoured to call you my sibling- You too Leto”. She nuzzled both the fillies, and nipped at their manes affectionately. She took a few steps away from them all “I hope you can forgive me…”
She stood in silence for a moment, so they consider an answer. She turned her attention solely on Titian “I don’t want to be here anymore, this island it makes my head hurt, I can’t act how I want to be, it changes me, and Hunter is always watching me, one day he will kill me or use me and kill me. I don’t want to die.” She let out a hopeless sob. “I don’t want to be his daughter. Please Titian, please, please take us all away from this place..”